Saturday, July 19, 2014

Trapped in her own self....







Sometimes, you are trapped in your own web of emotions. The strong voices in your head dominate you, control you and drown you in your sorrow. You feel helpless, you don't know what to do. There is no escape. Wherever you go, these thoughts hover over you. But then, You keep silent and wait for a thousand moments such as these to slowly pass. But this is a wait that never ends, Even after you grow weary of fighting alone. Your courage dissipates slowly and fear conquers you completely. Now, you slowly and gradually accept this sweet sorrow. Embrace it deeply. Its presence is so strong and powerful, that turns into an addiction. It gets mixed in your blood, flowing with it like a silent poison. Every night, the masks fall off and you unveil your true self. Underneath the blanket,where there are no eyes watching. You scream a million unheard fears and watch yourself breaking down and finally fall asleep in a pillow soaked in tears......



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prathima gangadhar said...

Deep but so true .. beautifully written

Ph_ said...

the side effect of growing up...

Unknown said...

Beautifully penned , Valli !

Bikram said...

but brave are the ones who then get up in the morning and Take the Day as NEw one and start all over again ..

but saying that I can understand as I go through this very often, question myself and then answer myself tooo ..

Bikram's

Rahul Bhatia said...

Nice writing Valli!

Confused Soul said...

I think almost each one of us that's reading it, has felt this way. Brilliant!

Ankur Anand said...

so true .. relatable ! growing up .. well written :)

Eon Heath said...

The pain becomes and addiction,a nd the poison is what keeps us sane...turn away before it happens, or life would never be the same...

you captured the emotions beautifully in your words...not many could do it..make the reader feel...
:)

Amrit Sinha said...

Yes ... that's how life is :-)

You are an amazing artist Valli :-)

Simran said...

That is a very touching piece of writing. If one gets the addiction to bear the pain then why don't accepts the fate and try to be happy in it or keep trying with no hopes lose. Nothing lasts forever and so is the bondage. Things will be changed and we should be prepared and patience.

sathish said...

I loved the painting...
and the emotion is profoundly expressed, Valli.

Unknown said...

Ouch. Sounds a little depressing but true.

Destination Infinity said...

Nice writing, but with age, I guess you'll start taking things easy. Some humor will definitely help!

Red Handed said...

Life turns you into that..but stronger too.
This was beautiful.
New to your blog. Great work!

Saru Singhal said...

Yes, we all face such a phase in our lives. Worst is we hide these feelings and pretend to be strong. :(

Bhasvant said...

inner chattering is a noise unheard, yet audible to the mind...mind alone and that can create untold havoc in our lives....no one will understand you but you yourself. Nicely expressed.

Rigzin Namgyal said...

..beautifully written Valli..its very true..we do wear mask of happiness but behind that mask there is sorrow and pain..after a while we get used to that pain and it becomes a part of us..and as u put it..it gets mixed in our blood..
..pain is what makes us..we got to nurture that pain into transform it into beautiful pieces of art..be it a painting,poetry or a book..
..you are not a true poet unless you are defeated in love..and you are one of the best poetess i have ever come across..love the magic that you weave with your words..keep it up Valli..all the very best..and keep weaving your magic..

Rigzin Namgyal said...

**and nurture that pain and transform it into beautiful pieces of art....

 

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